All in the family

I woke up yesterday well-rested and relieved. I never wake up well-rested. It's also nearly impossible for me to shut my eyes and not wake up until morning. It was a weird night, to say the least. But I was "on" the rest of the day. I felt healthy. Pro-active.

Again I woke up this morning with a feeling more rare than anything else. This sounds rather flakey and somewhat insane, but the only way to describe it is that I felt full of the Holy Spirit - and I mean this in the most secular non-crazy way possible. On Saturday I was making bold drunken statements like, "I believe in God the almighty, and Buddha and Vishnu! etc. etc." And I worry that I can come off as some sort of religious fanatic or Jesus Freak... but I'm actually extremely progressive and I just hold a massive reverence for the idea of God. The idea of a supremacy, and a larger than life force of nature... or divinity... who can save. And even destroy. It's all very marvelous. And without truly believing in the concept of the afterlife, I don't know how I'd personally make it through the day. After sickness and suffering and death there has to be some sort of paradise where her hair is long, and there are flowers everywhere. Stunning, healing flowers.

Like usual, I digress.

So I woke up with this feeling and for some reason I had established a certain belief. Like I didn't have to consider or question what I was feeling it just felt innate. And right. Yes there are certain people we should push away to improve the quality of our lives. But what if you realize you could be obliviously pushing away those that you should hold close? So I call my new belief "All in the family." Be aware of when you're pushing... because you should instead (not be pulling or possessing) but holding close. Holding dear. Supporting, encouraging. These are what families are made of. And family lasts. Family endures. Family is not feeble or fleeting. You don't choose your family. Family just happens.

And like I always, and will always say... everything happens for a reason.

-Lola.