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Hi con

Ba just concern about the side effect of your medecin .Would it make you gain weight recently ? Can you check with the schytherapy..or doctor Pugen .I want to help you to find out the better way to keep fit faster .We may need the specialist .Don't you think so ?Please remember Dad love you and want you feel better even if dad have to spend more money


I used to have these thoughts right before I fell asleep. I'd imagine my brother and my parents starving in the streets, fighting to eat, their pettiness dulled to something pitiful. In those thoughts, I'd see myself as their saviour and I'd see them as children naively holding their meagre belongings up to me in offering in exchange for a piece of bread or a morself of comfort. These thoughts used to upset me. They still do.

It isn't that I think I'm better than them. It's that there is so much they don't understand and I see them floundering and trying again and again to offer what they know which is really so little. I see them looking at what they hold in their hands and I see them throwing gifts at my feet, hoping that things will turn out perfectly and when it doesn't they look so confused. 'Why isn't this enough?' they ask. 'We're giving you everything we have.'

I feel like a bad person. I feel like a bad daughter. They're like children. They want to help so much, but they don't know how to. I feel like a bad person.

- I

If I could be anything to you, I would be...a baby.