Tuesday, March 17, 2009

it's a fantasy; let me fantasize

I do not like being oppressed.
I constantly get "A's." Worthless "A's."
"A's" mean nothing to me. You can take your "A" and shove it up your ass.
I feel like A's are oppressing. As if those who can give A's get some sort of sick power rush from their ability to do so.

Would you give Picasso an A? Would you?
Would you tell him to make his lines a little straighter? His colors, a little more coordinated?
Not everything is life and death... and when it is life and death... it's not life and death enough unless it's immediate impending death. Come to think of it...everything IS life and death no matter what. We're either dead or alive... is there really an in between? Doubtful. Or Possible.
WELL FUCK ME. And do it hard. And then give me an "A" for how good I was.
I'm sick of all this A business. I'm sick of people who get hard off A's.
I like creating for the sake of making strong art -- I don't care how artsy or pretentious that sounds. Because I'm not pretentious; I'm honest. I do not lie.
I value genuine feedback and criticism. Harsh skepticism. But above all UNDERSTANDING.
I'm in one of those, "can't I find someone who just understands me?" "am I that much of a rogue?" - kinda moods. Honestly.
I'm just sick of all these A's. A's are generic and easy.
I long for honest complexity...
But i'm over the whole gold stars thing.
It got old right up there with masturbation.
And in this day and age... everything is masturbation.
xo
If I were any book I'd be banned by the school board.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Thanks Lo.
I turned it in late so I got a B if not it would of been an A hahaha what a shame.. & & good luck with your play =)

Beth & Manly - Formerly - sexlessinthecity said...

Can I throw out there: FUCKING B PLUSES?!! Especially a certain prof who writes LOW in brackets after it. As if I wasn't already pissed.

B+ (low)... the only thing I can think of that's more annoying is a checkmark that has a line crossed through it in order to change it into an X. Thiiiiiis close to being a swastika.

~Des